HEATHER'S 17th ANGELVERSARY

Details: Created: Wednesday, 21 February 2024 17:38; Written by Lucy Kirkby

Today is Wednesday, February 21, 2024, and is the 17 year Angelversary of my Heather being called to Heaven. The day my sweet Heather left us, it was a Wednesday - Ash Wednesday to be exact. Has it really been 17 years? It doesn’t matter how much time has passed, my broken heart aches for my girl just as much as the day she died. Missing my sweet Heather comes in waves. Today, I’m drowning. I’ve said that so often these past 17 years, and it holds true today. The waves are coming at me bigger and more frequently today than I was prepared for.

As always, I am wearing purple. The same shade of purple that Heather wore so often. I have my little purple bow made from ribbon pinned to my shirt as an outward symbol that I am remembering my beautiful girl today. I have Drops of Jupiter playing on my computer at work, in my vehicle, and will listen to it again at home this evening. I listened to the song Calling All Angels also. I am trying to avoid watching Heather’s video until I get home from work, so I don’t completely break down while here at work. Still might happen after one of these waves hits me again. Unpredictable storms happening today!

The day started out foggy and gloomy. Very fitting. The sun is trying to break through. It is just warm enough and the sun is out just enough to remind me of that very day back on February 21, 2007. The worst day of my life and the last day of my Heather’s.

Cherish each day, each moment no matter how small it is with your loved ones. Our time together on this earth can be too short. Goodbyes hurt the most when the story was not finished.

I live every single day without one of my children. I pray that this burden is only an unimaginable one for any mother reading this. Be thankful if you don’t understand.

To my beautiful, sweet Girl Girl Heather. Sometimes I don’t know if the tears I cry are for you or for myself, because I must now live without you. I do know I love you and miss you so much my heart hurts. Before I ever carried the pain of losing you, I carried you. And in my heart I carry you still. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve pictured your smile to help me survive.

I continue to look for and see the “signs” that you send me to remind me that you are here with us. Sometimes I smile and say out loud, "I know that was you." Whenever I recognize a sign that was Heaven sent from you, it brings me such comfort.

Continue to watch over your little sisters. And of course, Joel and me. I know we are in good hands under your watch. My Heather, My Beautiful Girl Girl, I love you more than I can ever begin to express. And that love will live on forever.

Love you much,

Mom