Heather's 36th Birthday

Details: Created: Monday, 21 June 2021 15:54; Written by Lucy Kirkby

Happy Birthday, Heather! It hasn’t been the same around here since you’ve been gone. I really miss hearing you laugh and seeing your smiling face. Today is the day that I miss you the most because it’s your birthday, the day you were brought into this world. I hope the Angels and loved ones are dancing and celebrating with you in Heaven and making you feel loved.

We celebrate even though you are not here with us. I still sing you the Birthday song. I smile at the memories of you that I hold so closely in my heart. My heart is where I keep you forever. I still speak to you both out loud and in my mind. I do believe that you hear me when I speak to you and you know just how much I am missing you. My heart still looks for you, but my soul knows that you are at peace.

Whenever I am missing you, I also remember how fortunate I am that you were in my life. I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world. I am thankful God blessed me with having you in my life for 21 short years. Although you would be 36 today, you will be Forever 21.

Not a day goes by that I don’t look at your picture and smile. Or cry. Or both. My “normal” is having tears waiting behind every smile when I realize someone special is missing from all the important events in our family’s life. But, you are here with us. Always.

Naturally, it was a purple day with Drops of Jupiter playing and memories of you racing through my mind. I grieve because you are not here. Grief never ends, but it changes. It’s like a passage, not a place to stay. It’s not a sign of weakness, or a lack of faith. I think it is the price of love. I learn to live in the sunshine of your life instead of the shadow of your death.

Please continue to watch over us all, especially your sisters. Allow us to be open to receive the blessing of the signs you send to us when we need them. Although we can no longer see you with our eyes, we feel you in our hearts forever. As long as we have you, our Angel in Heaven, to watch over us and protect us, there is no one that can break us.

Happy Birthday, my beautiful girl girl. You made this world a brighter and better place. I love you with my every heartbeat and miss you with my every breath. I will carry you with me until I see you again.

Love,
Mom

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Twinkle, twinkle little star, up in Heaven is where you are.
Flying high and twinkling bright, my guiding Star, my shining light.
Twinkle, twinkle little Star. My perfect Angel… is who you are.